Its been quite a long time since i submitted my last blog before new semester starts. So busy to updates everything. Have a lots of things to submit but due to time restriction, i cant blog put it all here at one time.

  So pity to a friend of mine. They're so happy when they meet up few months back. And now, things already get complicated on them. Poor them, but yeah, they're not as bad as what ive faced through. A conclusion i could get from his story n other peoples experience plus with mine. Relationship & love becomes unvaluable day by day, things easily come and go in short period of time. If before, i expected that someone who is religious wont be facing the same problem as others have, but the truth is they also involve in flirting, even worse than people could expected. Peaple tend to easily change their partner, not only before married, even after married as well. So its not surprising if the divorce rates getting higher each day. Well, where n what is the value of real Love actually?

  As a politicans who leads the country keeps on concentrating the development of every aspect, economy especially, they're getting blind as they see the wealth, they're hunger of wealth, they tend to neglect their faith. And leading people without faith and belief in muslim, things become worst. That is what happening now in reality.

  As country develops, people searching for entertainment to release their stress & tension.Too much of entertainment, another reason why things comes to unvaluable stage which is unsupposed to happens. Having so much fun, neglecting bout the main reason why they're born here in world, and they forget that they actually Allah's servants.

  Islam, is the best religion and the only that accepted by God. It contains all guidelines for humans to live peacefully til hereafter, and even teach about Love and everythings related to it. People do actually accept it in their beliefs but they dont applicate it on their real life. It also teaches on how to take a good care of friends and friendship.

  Sadly as what im facing now, what i could say is i lost my great bestfriends which i hope them to be the REAL friends til the rest of my life. They have all my secrets, they were kind enough to me before, they were so good. But everythings tend to change in a single blink. They're really dissapoint me, really2 do. i wonder why it is happening so, was it my fault done something bad on them? I really love them n need them. Cant make any assumption bout it since i dont really know what's inside them actually. REGRET. Thats the feelings for now. It might change, yet it might become permanent if they keep as what they are permanently.

   Mnemophobia & philophobia. Words to describe of everything. Was philophobia at 1st, then add another phobia when good friends went off, so become mnemophobia. All i could say, thank you for every single thing for the kindness and good times, and sorry for anything & everything.

  The counselor would certainly says "its better for u to find a friend and share with them when u have problems". I do believe in that. But according to my few times experienced, i prefer to keep it by myself which is much more comfortable for me. No need for me to worries that my secrects would fall into wrong person, and no need for me to get dissapointed when i lost my good friends after they knew everything. i can share but its become so difficult for me to let it out with conditions, not like how easily it was before. I just dont want to repeat the same mistake again and feel the same dissapointment again & again. Ive had it enough before.